ON THE NATURE OF ‘DARK’ ENTITIES CONTINUED: TWO CASE STUDIES.
During my third Ayahuasca ceremony I underwent an exorcism of sorts, where a malevolent entity was pulled from my solar plexus. I know right? Sounds like crazy talk to most of you. It would’ve sounded like crazy talk to me before I started partaking of plant medicines and entering the shamanic realms. But regardless of whether it was ‘really real’ or ‘truly true’, the effects it had on me were definitely real and they changed my life for the better. 15 years of chronic depression and anxiety were healed in a single night. My posture and energy changed dramatically over night.
I can pinpoint when I picked up this entity to a specific night when I had a very negative LSD trip at my high school formal, aged fifteen. I didn’t have a date that night and highly insecure about this and fell into this intense loop of fear and self-doubt. After that night, I had a severe social phobia for the next 17 years and could not attend social gatherings without having an anxiety attack.
Perhaps in a way, it started earlier than that. Having experienced a lot of ostracism in my childhood, I didn’t have the greatest self-esteem and this left me open to attack. This illustrates an important mechanism of how these entities work:
These entities locate the vulnerable points and wounds in your psyche where they can enter and ‘hook’ into you.
After having the entity removed, the Ayahuasca then informed me that basically there was a war going on between ‘The forces of light’ and ‘The forces or darkness’.
‘What is this fucking Star Wars?’ I thought. I was informed that the battle had always been going on since the beginning of time. It was pretty much the duality that kept the universe in flux. Many cultures and religions speak of this duality. The Angels vs Demons of Christianity, the Devas vs Asuras of Vedic culture, the Djinn vs the Malah’ikah of Islam, the list goes on.
Basically what was going on at the moment, the Ayahuasca informed me, was that most of humanity was currently asleep and/or possessed by these dark forces and didn’t even realise it. These dark forces fed off the negative energy generated by the various internal and external conflicts they engineered by using us as pawns in their game. We are basically some kind of farm for them and that right now the world was severely out of balance, in favour of these dark forces and unless we did something soon, we were all doomed.
‘What the hell do you want me to do about it?’ I asked them.
It was time to pick a side it told me. The age of fence-sitting was over.
Whether you think this is crazy talk or not, what this insight did was to detach a person from their actions in a way that allowed me to feel greater compassion for them, where once there would have been hatred and anger. This has allowed me to engage in more constructive way with the kinds of people that would of once been a great source of enmity to me. I do entertain this though as just another perspective on the ultimately unknowable truth, but one that I have found more useful to engage in than the standard point of view on difficult people — that they are just fucking assholes that are best ignored or derided.
Recently I spent a month in the desert doing communal living. It was an amazing experience and everyone I met there was awesome and easy to get along with. Then about three weeks into the experience, a certain individual showed up that put the loving atmosphere into jeopardy.
At first I could not quite place it, but something about them that irked me. I was repelled by her on an energetic level, like everytime I engaged with her, it was like she wanted something from me that I could not give her. Love, validation, acceptance. It was draining to engage with her, because her public facade was incredibly disingenuine and she didnt even seem to be aware of it. It offended me to have to participate in this repetitious charade with her, to feed her illusions by playing along with the myriad of emotional games that a standard interaction with her entailed. I found it made me compromise my own sense of integrity. She would demand a lot of attention and not give anything back. She was a level 3 psychic vampire. At times I instinctively felt compelled to hiss at her like a cornered cat to keep her away from me.
And it wasn’t just me, the majority of the camp had similar experiences. Not that this is supposed to be some kind of petty bitch session. No, not at all. In fact after a few days of being around her, I realised that it was not really her per se, but the fact that there was some kind of dark spirit attached to her that was operating through her to cause much conflict as possible. I would estimate that she was about 80–90% possessed. She had been on camp for the past week and was causing havoc with most people she interacted with, projecting whatever unresolved emotional traumas she had onto everyone else and unable to take responsibility for the fact that perhaps it wasn’t them, but her at the centre of it all.
It got to the point where whenever I was around her, I found myself spontaneously performing shamanic passes - physical gestures combined with intent - where I would cross my arms and push out while exhaling sharply and found that every time I did this, she would suddenly drift away from my area, not really knowing why exactly. To reiterate the nature of these entities:
These entities work to create negative emotions within the surrounding people and within the host that they then feed off.
I speculated that perhaps the dark forces had sent her to try and fuck with our operations, seeing as the walk itself was force of the light, of the good, and no such project would go unchallenged by the dark forces that delighted in derailing such projects.
I had attempted to confront her on the walk, but her blindspot was immense. While walking together, we had begun talking about certain patterns and narratives we tend to fall into and re-inforce. I thought this would be a good oppurtunity to bring up some thoughts about the way she was functioning in the group, as I could no longer bear being so fake around her. But bringing up her patterns only made her defensive. She began to quote that she had been doing group therapy for thirteen years and that I wasn’t qualified to engage with this kind of material. She then instigated some kind of guilt trip and subtle emotional manipulation that manifested in unpleasant feelings in my solar plexus and heart chakra. I could feel her entity attacking these centres. In my mind’s eye I saw something similar to a lamprey lashing out at me and trying to drain me.
I could not have a straight conversation with her, as any real or direct communication ended with her thinking that she was being attacked and the entity attached to her would then begin to attack me. So out of self preservation, I cut off contact, realising that she was not yet ready to heal. This is where I learnt a very important lesson:
You cannot help someone heal who does not want to be helped.
Why was she not ready to be helped? It seems that a lot of these entities work by making contracts with their hosts. Most of the time, these contracts are not fair and are basically made when the host is in a compromised position, during trauma, during childhood and are fed all sorts of lies as to what making a deal with these entities comprises of. The nature of this was revealed, when I was discussing the idea of one’s personal demons with another person and the person in question suddenly interrupted and said, ‘I love my demons! They help me write amazing songs.’ The person in question was a talented singer and songwriter. In fact it was during her singing that I could catch a fleeting glimpse of her true self. But her statement basically informed me that she was not ready to let her demons go. She had made an agreement with them, probably during a space where she felt unloved and thought that if she put all her faith in her creative outlet, people would love her for it. I know this because I adhered to this similar narrative for quite some time as a comedian. This brings us to another point on these dark force entities:
They make contracts with you, often exploiting areas of lack in your being by promising to give you all that you believe you need to be happy.
Obviously it is unreasonable to think that anything from outside of you can give you any lasting contentment, but again as a young traumatised child, how are you even in a position to defend yourself or know this? This is one of the main sneaky ways that these things get into you. I observed from her interactions that the main thing she wanted was validation and love, and I realised that she did not love herself.
The more I tried to ignore her, the more her behaviour within the group got to me. Occasionally I would catch glimpses of her true self imprisoned within the fake scaffolding that the dark spirit had erected around her. The trap it had erected around her was so complete, she could barely see that it was an artifice. And of course this is another lesson in how entities like to work:
They like to convince you that they are you.
After all the greatest trick the devil ever did was to convince everyone that he was not real. If you think that something negative is a part of you, how will you ever get around to thinking it is possible to extract this from you? You see this everywhere, people self-identifying with their wounds, their trauma and self-destructive personal narratives of illness. They believe that these things are indelible parts of who they are and that it is a threat to their ego to have them removed, because their egos (which we often mistake as their true selves) believes that if this happens, they will die (which in a way is true, that version of their ego will ‘die’). And if they believe these wounds are inextricable parts of the themselves, how will they ever come to a point where they feel the need to begin the healing process?
The fact of the matter is however, is this:
Anything that does not serve your highest self and seeks to compromise your wellbeing, is not a part of your true self and is most likely coming from an external source.
Why would your true self want ruin upon your being? It seems this is counter intuitive to the survival instinct, the will to live. And yet still I watch as people helplessly get pulled towards self-destructive behaviour time and time again. I myself was once a victim of this, until I underwent the aforementioned Ayahuasca exorcism where these modes of thought, behaviour and being were expelled from my physical, emotional and spiritual body.
I remember yelling at it a lot, demanding it to leave me. It was a powerful moment to suddenly realise that I no longer wanted to live the way I had been living. But i could only come to this point because nothing was working in my life at all.
People are often only ready to heal when they have no energy left to run away from facing their problems.
There was a lot of yelling going on, as I demanded it leave me. In my minds eye I saw this thick black cloud with eyes and sharp teeth attached to my solar plexus.
‘I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU!’ it screamed back at me as I demanded it leave.
‘GET THE FUCK OUT OF ME! I DON’T WANT YOU INSIDE OF ME ANYMORE!’ I yelled back.
I realised however that the more negative energy I sent it, the stronger it became. After all, as re-iterated several times already in this article, these entities feed on negative energy.
I changed tact and with all my willpower, began to send it love and positive feelings. This loosened it’s grip upon me and it began to recede. It then proposed a deal with me. That I dedicate the rest of my life in the service of others and not just for my own selfish ends. Deciding that I didn’t want to live the rest of my life with evil spirit in my belly, I agreed and it detached itself. After throwing up violently, fifteen years of chronic depression and anxiety were gone in the space of one night. This brings me to another point.
These dark entities can serve a positive purpose in re-orienting you towards the light and facilitating self growth.
However it was not totally gone. Nature abhors a vacuum and in the following months, I found it attempting to return, whenever my discipline slipped or when I strayed off the path. It was an ongoing struggle for the next few years to keep it from re-entering me, which it did several times, attempting to regain it’s foothold. What I did realise was where the space it had once occupied had to be filled by something. To quote something that the Ayahuasca spirit told me in a following ceremony that I feel is invaluable to protection and healing:
It is not enough to pull out the weeds, you have to plant flowers in the spaces left behind.
People can often obsessively focus on doing shadow work on the medicines, and thats fair enough, it is important work. But the shadows go on for a while and sometimes when you are staring at the shadows all the time, you can forget about the light. How one plants flowers is really variable with each person. For me, Karma yoga, positive action worked for me. Community based volunteer work also helped filled in the energetic blank spots that were once taken up by the dark energies. The other very important thing I had to do in order to fill in the space left behind was to:
Visualise a new positive life narrative to replace the space that was once occupied by a self-destructive negative life narrative.
I had forgotten that we always have the power to choose what narrative we wanted to live our lives by.
It was strange to be no longer depressed. I had been depressed for so long, I just assumed it was normal and that was just the way things were. To say my depression was lifted from spirit removal would be overall simplistic. The other way that Ayahuasca cured my depression was not only through this, but also by revealing to me the reality of the spiritual dimensions to life and giving meaning to my life, two things that modern Western society does not really provide. If anything if you look at it, Western society is a very comfortable and convenient, yet utterly meaningless vacuum that seems to promote a nihilist hedonist outlook — the empty pursuit of pleasure in a meaningless void.
The fact that this attachment was located in my solar plexus also points to an interesting feature of these energetic forms:
These attachments often have a corresponding physical location on their host’s body.
For mine, it was on my solar plexus. For the person I was discussing before, it was clearly in her upper back. She was always complaining about back pain and I observed she had a hunch of sorts, where the entity had manifested as a muscular pattern within her physical body.
Days went by, and more and more I began to plot my confrontation with her. I just could not deal with being in her space anymore. I noticed she had a similar effect on other empaths and people who operated from a shamanic point of view in the group. We would take on her negative energy just from being in her presence and then have to go find ways of clearing it. Then one day I had an insight: these constant thoughts I had of her, of confronting her or calling out her demon, was in fact her entity trying to manipulate me. It had entered me and was trying to use me to force a confrontation with her, a confrontation that was no doubt destined to fail and would just generate a lot of negative energy in order to feed the entity more of it’s food. I realised my intent was not honourable. It was not coming from a place of love or light, but more from a need to castigate some parts of my shadow that I saw reflected in her.
My tact changed. Whenever I had these thoughts about her, I would exhale loudly and use my will to banish them. And the more I resisted, the more her entity would attempt to incite me. Using mindfulness, I would observe this feeling and let it pass through me and do my best to not react, using breathing and chanting exercises to clear the energy it was sending me. The only other person in the camp who didn’t react to her negatively was a long term Buddhist who seemed fairly self-realised and integrated as a person. Around her, the person in question’s attempts seemed to just slide off of her, it had nothing to hold onto. This taught me another lesson on the nature of these entities:
These entities work on whatever corresponding negativities that are still inside of you. They are their points of entry.
So then it follows that the best way to protect yourself and become immune from them, would be to:
Do your best to eradicate whatever negative aspects of yourself might serve as hand holds for these kinds of entities. Raise your vibration and you will not be drawn into their game.
Easier said then done though! These are not just my thoughts but are expressed in a range of other writings on the subject. But when I learned the nature of how this particular entity worked and resisted being drawn into her game, I eventually began to have cordial conversations with the host. One time she even sat down next to me and said in a funny voice. ‘I will sit down next to Nick, Nick knows how to handle me now, doesn’t he?’
It was an interesting moment and I felt like I had passed some kind of test and learnt many invaluable lesson. Her entity was almost a teacher of sorts and made me wonder whether these entities were actually serving the darkness, serving the light, serving both in some kind of ambiguous way or if morality was more complex than these standard dichotomies.
It seems like the world right now is overrun with demonic possession. We are fair game to them primarily because we are currently going through an age where we have been severed from our connection to spirit and from the land. We are essentially a bunch of floating heads being pushed around in turbulent waters, at the mercy of all sorts of malevolent forces that seek to manipulate us through various fear based control programs and mass dark force entity possession. The systematic worldwide oppression and destruction of indigenous cultures is an attempt to cut us off from knowledge that will re-establish this link and help us identify and become immune to these dark forces. The indigenous cultures are the ones that still know how to maintain a connection to the Earth and to Spirit. And this leads me to a very important point about protection:
Once you have a strong uninterrupted channel running from the ground to the heavens, you are immune to the many control programs the forces of darkness seek to use to keep us down.
To re-establish this, we must make connection with the local indigenous cultures, learn from them and help heal the wounds inflicted upon them by the control system and those behind it.
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